He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
-Psalm 23:1-3
Most recently, I've found that I've been spiritually deprived. The lack of a home congregation in Massachusetts has bothered me, and I've been fixated more on grades than on what God's revealing to me through my classes. Though I've been leading a small service group, I haven't been spiritually leading, and I've let my friends down because of this. I asked God to provide me with time to just shut out everything that I've made an idol and to, instead, rejuvenate my [spiritual] life through focusing on Him.
This prayer He answered. Just not in the "conventional" way (i.e. spring break, a quiet Sabbath, etc.).
I have several medical issues. Three that recently decided to appear (or reappear) simultaneously the week before spring break. I was in such bad health that for the past couple weeks I did not have enough energy to leave my apartment (I could barely get up from my bed to get a glass of water). This, however, provided me with enough downtime for God to infiltrate the thoughts and actions that I previously removed from His influence.
He is good. He answers prayer, He displays His love, and He is always loyal. He loves us in the most unique ways, He always keeps us on our toes, and never allows us to ever have a dull moment. Though I once considered being healthy as a blessing, I found that being sick was what saved me.
Thank God for His power and sense of humor. Who would have ever assumed that two weeks in bed would have been two of the most blessed weeks of someone's life?
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